HopeHOPE
Where the winds of disappointment dash my dreams to the
ground and anger, octopus-like, wraps its tentacles around my pelvis
I am stopped
in my tracks
I am brought to my knees
I search and search for one thing that can heal me
I dream of my youth when I was free of IC
I hold on to those pain free memories like a child desires candy
I sit in the doctor’s office full of hopeful expectation that he will help me
once again my hope dash away
I suddenly find myself gazing at my denial and it hit me
Acceptance would set me free from gloom and despair, and into the pleasing
climate of hope.
Thank You IC
IC
after all you have put me through
You’d
think I’d despise you
But
I wanna thank you
Cause
you made me that much stronger
Each
time I thought you were through, it was never true
I
guess, I couldn’t trust you
I
done, you’ve bluffed me for the last time, I’ve had enough
You
were there by my side, always down for the ride
But
your joy ride just came to end
Your
greed has robbed me of my joy of life
After
all of the stealing and cheating
You
probably think that I hate you
But,
uh uh, oh no, you’re wrong
Cause
if it wasn’t for you all that you tried to do
I
wouldn’t know just how capable I am to pull through
So
I wanna say thank you
Cause
IC you made me that much stronger
You
made me work that much harder
You
made me that much wiser
You
taught me how to love despite the pain
You
gave me faith in a higher power
So
thanks for making me a fighter
No,
I never saw you coming
You
came into my life like a thief in the night
You
held me hostage
You
robbed me of everything that was good in my life
When
it came down to you or me
I
used all that you taught me
I
took you down
After
all the pain and lies you inflicted upon me
Yes
you wanted to continue to harm me but it won’t work anymore
Uh,
no more, oh no, it’s over
If
it were not for you, IC, I wouldn’t know how to be this way now, and never back
down
So
thank you IC for making me a fighter
Written by Gloria Prater
Illustrated by -Anne Marie Simnovec and Heather Fox
